ADHD Attention

As my knees near the floor for the last time, my bones creak and all the breath in my body leaves in one exasperated gasp. The pain is debilitating and the strain is simply too much. This will be my final act, my last moment. As I reach up to my child in anguish, hoping they have a happy life without me, my child takes the toy out of my hand and my wife tells me to get up.

It is no secret that the mental health services in the Uk are shocking, to say the least, but on top of this, it has knock-on effects on other services that some people may not think about. In my case, I have joined the long wait list for adults with ADHD who are looking to get help or support. 

Overthinking is my life, my existence, my state of being. But also I really enjoy the simplicity and easy thoughts. But on the other hand...

School is often a struggle for ADHD. Not because we're dumb or lazy, but because forced learning isn't interesting. The more forced something is, the less motivated I am. When I was in college, I struggled to sit for 5 minutes and even look at homework or projects. Yet during the same time, I got interested in using grey water in residential construction and checked out 3 books from the library. I completely read all three and took notes the whole time. Self-motivation is key for me to learn anything. 

  The first one I will work on will be my browser bookmarks. Not because I planned to work in this order, but because I randomly just got motivated to do it. When you get a motivation wave, you gotta ride it! This is part of Goal 2: Organising and Simplifying programmes and apps and files.

So I have some broad goals set for what I want to accomplish. Now comes the how. We need specific goals that I can consistently act on. In each broad goal, I make specific goals and prioritise actions that make the most impact with the least effort.